scared!

This past weekend was one of the most heartbreaking experience I've ever had since becoming a mom. Nathan had cough starting Thursday and by Friday night he had fever. I thought nothing of it since I figure its the flu season so that might be the case. We went to Blythe to visit my mom and pick up recyles since Nathan collects them for some moolah to put in his very big bank account.

Starting Friday night when we arrived in Blythe, he had 103.2 fever. I gave him Motrin and a cough medication. He continously had fever throughout Saturday. His coughing was really bad. Once he starts coughing it seems like he has a hard time stopping. Then came Sunday when were supposed to leave town for Chino Hills. In the morning we got invited by a family friend to a birthday party. Unfortunately we all took naps and lost track of time. Got to the party, ate too much Filipino food and head back to my moms to get ready for our trip. However, we left the party too late and I just did not feel safe driving at 8 pm in the evening with just me and Nathan. That decision was probably a Gods blessing because 15 minutes after I made that decision something happened to Nathan. My mom called me out because Nathan had a nosebleed. I thought nothing of it because sometimes he does gets nosebleeds especially if he has a cold (his nose gets dry quickly). But then his nose kept bleeding. Blood was gushing out of his nostril and I panicked. What made it even worst was a few minutes after a clot came out of his nose. It looked like a giant fat worm (thats how long it was) came out of his nostril. By then I was yelling at my mom in panicked. On our way to the hospital more blood came out and more clots came out. At that point I just look up to God and ask him to take care of my son because I can't. I never felt so helpless in my life. A million scenarios came to mind and trying to block negative thoughts otherwise I'd loose it and boohoo the entire time. Anways, we got to the ER (its always a perk when your mom works there as a nurse) and was seen right away. While waiting for the doctor Nathan coughed and low and behold came this marble size clot again. By then I look at my younger sister with despair trying to hold back tears. They did blood work, urine sample, and xrays. It turns out he was super dehydrated, his hemoglobin level was ultra low (probably from the nosebleed), high levels of monocytes (which shows he has an infection), and xrays showed he has bronchitis. My heart sank but glad it wasn't something serious. The gave him an IV, two antibiotics and some Tylenol because his fever was at 104. We stayed at the hospital until 3/4 in the morning. I was beyond exhausted and my mom was like super mom because she pretty much did it all.

Today, it was a bit slow. Still had fever but he was in no mood to do anything other than lay in bed. However, he had nosebleeds again but not as severe compare to last night. I'm still worried. Tomorrow we are heading back to home and the only thing that put my mind at ease is the access to the many top Children's Hospitals in the country (CHLA, Mattel, and CHOC). I pray to God nothing happens on the road ...